I should go to bed, but I think I’ll watch one more video first, just to be absolutely sure I end the day with laughter.
Also my anxiety is telling me to say that if I don’t wake up ever again that I love like some of you. Most of you I don’t know. Who are you ~350 people? Who are you
Goodbye friends I am gone
i just want to be eighteen
why isn’t it july yet
i want it to be july so i can be eighteen and itll almost be august and then the best four days of my life can happen but i have to sit here waiting for shit i ordered to show up so i can work on making june super spectacular for saz and that’ll be great but UGH why isn’t it august yet
So far, despite my anxiety telling me that other things would happen, i’ve survived the past two days and nights. Here’s hoping for more successful continuing of breathing in and out with a breathing heart and a whirling mind. And also an end to this current batch of anxiety.
Like, I know that I get over it and stop having “oh god am i going to die today” anxiety eventually, but I never actually remember how the fuck I chase off the anxiety in the first place when it starts its ‘lasting for days’ modes like this.
there was a cloud outside that lookedl ike a dragon but then it lkooked morel ike am ermaid getting shot through the head/chest with ah arpoon but now it looks more like some kinda demon or dragon again
shield watched: check
do i feel like doing the secret thing: no
do i feel like vey: maybe